[bpftw]

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 05:52:28 GMT

My only left conclusion: I have no luck with guys.
END

End end end end end. This makes me sad

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 05:00:59 GMT

The biggest fuck up in my life (thus far) happened Friday night/Saturday morning.
Thank you, copious amounts of alcohol.

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 08:17:07 GMT

Why am I alone.
Maybe I deserve it..

Second guessing..

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 04:24:04 GMT

It didn't mean anything!!.. Did it?
Stupid boys.

Flickr

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 09:02:17 GMT

Flickr account:
http://www.flickr.com/sueeshi

Twitter:
http://www.twitter.com/sueeshi

Vision trip: Aug. 2-14
Trip all over le east coasttt, I have no idea where we'll be going. Hmmm
Pictures + update = cool. Whooooop

Twilight

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 04:42:44 GMT

So, it's pretty safe to say that the only reason why teeny-boppers and other people who've recently been listening to Muse is contributed to the rabid fanbase of the Twilight books. Thanks Stephanie Meyers for getting people who dont really care about Muse to listen to them :)

The reason for this.. I saw an article that said "How to have a Twilight birthday party" and one of the things were 'include a handful of Muse songs' <-- :/

And.. I have nothing to do in the summer.. but why am I so busy..?

Spock

Wed, 13 May 2009 07:25:40 GMT

Uhm, I drank 3 cups of coffee to stay awake to study for the chem exam that's in 12 hours.. But I ended up streaming Star Trek and I cant really concentrate now.
Spock. Is hot. Yeah, fact.

And Friday was a disaster. Poor Jason.. D:

Hmmm

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 23:17:23 GMT

Apparently I can't handle stress. True story.

And I also love Omegle.
TALK TO STRANGERS! It's interesting to say the least.

And again..

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 09:13:23 GMT

I dont know what to do with my life again.
haha, that is IF i live that long :\
joy.

i have one of those creepy feelings that im going to die soon.
'soon' =/= tomorrow, next week.. i just dont know when. that's the thing :|
i just have a feeling it's soon.

uhm, in the meantime, i should get my decisions movin'.

time's running out.

peace, late.

ps: im 18 now :D
and i get my M3 next year.
.... might be problematic.

on a "serious" note...

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 08:52:05 GMT

i feel like i cant directly talk to someone without censoring myself.
i feel like i always have to watch what i say.. i cant say what i want.
i cant talk to anyone :|

Lambo vs. Veyron

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 07:30:18 GMT

I change my mind... the Bugatti is an automatic translation to getting laid.
that car.. is fucking AWESOME.

I've found my new dream dream car.
it's the Bugatti Veyron.
that beast is INSANE.
i want to own one one day.
not even that, i just want to drive one.
oh. my goodness.

Whoever has a Bugatti MUST be getting laid, i cant even tell you.
Having a Lamborghini is just EH compared to being in the mere presence of a Bugatti.
I'm telling you.. sighhhhhh :o
i'd do anything to own one.
yeah, ANYTHING, fo' real, homes.
Seriously though, I honestly would do anything.

Bugatti FTUW.

definition of FTUW: (phrase)
For The Ultimate Win.

Bugatti Veyron, bitches.
love it.

ps:
i have this like.. whole list of cars i want.

Audi A5
Audi TT************************
BMW 528i *********************
BMW M5
Bugatti Veyron
Lamborghini Gallardo
Mercedes-Benz ML
Mercedes-Benz SL AMG
Mercedes-Benz SLK280*******
Porsche Cayenne S

i dont know which car to get..
the Audi TT, BMW 528i, or the Mercedes SLK (respectively)

the prices are all around the same.. but with the bmw costing a little bit more.
audi's a coupe, so is the mercedes.
bmw is a sedan. i dont know.
everyone has a beemer around here, seems to me that i'd be kind of blending in, ya' know?
mercedes.. :D i've loved that car since i was a freshman.. but i've loved bmw since as long as i can remember. ugh.
decisions decisions :|

nevertheless, i want a german car.
it's about damn time.
we've had japanese cars from the start.. time to UPGRADE.
honda > infiniti > lexus > audi/bmw/mercedes.
damn.

1979-2008

Wed, 23 Jan 2008 02:37:56 GMT

Heath Ledger died. :(
im sad.

R.I.P.
4/4/1979 - 1/22/2008

joo ji hoon is looking pretty hot.

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 08:08:06 GMT

anyway,
im watching 'SiCKO' right now by michael moore.
and.. it's pretty sick.
[[ watch it. ]]

it's on heath care..
and seeing how it is... it's so sick.
the health companies are in it for profit rather than actually HELPING people..
of course, you shouldnt trust every single thing a movie says.. but still..
if you do research for it, it all shows..

and... i want to move to the UK or.. even France.
seriously.
they have universal health care..
which basically means.. everyone gets free healthcare.
even people on vacation there, if they need help, they get care.
so, why not in the US?
because a lot of corporate 'higher power' people want moneyyyy.
and also, citizens dont want to pay taxes for the 'illegals'.
who the fuck cares, it's going to come back later in the future!

i mean think about it..
you pay health care taxes when you dont need help and help others -- you help others.. dont be selfish.
and then when you DO need healthcare later because you get some serious illness, people help you.
so, its a cycle.
i dont see what's so wrong with it.

like in the movie,
a lady living in France.. who lived in the US in her earlier life..
said that the people in the US are afraid of the government and dont protest enough and whatever..
and that the government in France are afraid of the people rebelling.
so.. HM.

..."free universal healthcare' in guantanamo bay.
.. guantanamo... bay.
something wrong,

so,.. im thinking, maybe i SHOULD go for the whole doctor career and move to england.
the doctors there are paid by the government, have pensions, get paid vacations and times off...
it's insane.
so, in the end, i'd think it'll be worth it, yeah?

i dont know.
something's wrong with the US healthcare.

edit://
Cuba has universal healthcare.

& i just remembered that i did a powerpoint for mrs, huntley's class earlier this year..
it was on healthcare.
i said that there'd be higher taxes.. but everyone would be happy.
and, then someone said something about not paying taxes so that illegals can get it for free.
..i think mrs. huntley was leaning on that side too...
i think she's a conservative.

spam.

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 02:55:13 GMT

6 - the Questioner

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX (aka "The Loyalist").

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family,
friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved
and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

Be direct and clear.
Listen to me carefully.
Don't judge me for my anxiety.
Work things through with me.
Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
Laugh and make jokes with me.
Gently push me toward new experiences.
Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Six

being committed and faithful to family and friends
being responsible and hardworking
being compassionate toward others
having intellect and wit
being a nonconformist
confronting danger bravely
being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Six

the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence
in myself
fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Sixes as Children Often

are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and
stubborn
are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority
and rebel
are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families,
and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Sixes as Parents

are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
worry more than most that their children will get hurt
sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

homesick.

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 04:04:23 GMT

i think im getting homesick again..
im super sad right now.

i miss it so much, i hate it here.

house.

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 06:09:05 GMT

the house.

Johnny Knoxville

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 05:02:56 GMT

johnny knoxville's hot.

darn me for not realising before.

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 02:10:49 GMT

no news.
no news. no news.
no news. no news. no news.
no news. no news. no news. no news.
no news. no news. no news. no news. no news.
no news. no news. no news. no news.
no news. no news. no news.
no news. no news.
no news.

except:

Jonas Armstrong is one sexy motherfucker.

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 06:15:49 GMT

you know, i really dont care much for avril lavigne.. but..
sk8er boiiiiiiiiiii
brings back madd memories, man. a LOT of memories. sighhh, good times.

ps:
sk8er boi. lmfao, what a loser.

touchy-feely.

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 01:50:11 GMT

the ~~guys~~ people here are madd touchy.

mmm

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 06:02:48 GMT

matt. hugs. good.

the end.

Jen's my hero.<3

Mon, 08 Jan 2007 06:13:37 GMT

first off, Jen is my hero.
second, today was definitely the best day in '07 so far. haha, surprise surprise. i only did... NOTHING in 2007.. ha.

HAHAHAHAH, i love jen.
ohmanohman,...
everything that happened today was a fluke.
everything that between the time of: 2:50-3:10.

jen wasnt supposed to go up, but she did.
she wasnt supposed to go into his house.. but she did.
he wasnt supposed to walk out to the car to say hi, but he did.

it's amazing.
and oh man was i freaking out.
i was glad to see him though.

he could've done a million things.. but instead.. he came out.. with bare feet.. in shorts.. in the cold.<3 xD
he could've..

been all mean about the whole thing
said '..who are you.. get the hell out of my house., i dont know you'
called the police.
refused to walk out to the car.
refused to walk out in the cold weather
refused to walk without his shoes.
been all snooty about the uh,. 'surprise' statement from ms. jen.
asked ten billion questions
etc
etc
etc, you can just imagine what he could've done.

but no, he didnt do any of these.
he was a good sport about it.. lmfao.
of course.. i should've said something more than 'hi', but i was panicked..
i dont even remember when he left.. or if he even said anything..
..i think it was because no one was talking to him... lmfao, im such a dumbass..

yeah, he definitely wasnt expecting an audience.
nope. damnnnn. i feel stupid. =]

The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one.

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 07:26:31 GMT

hola.

i moved to delaware.

it's alright, considering i've been outside of my house... twice, since i've moved.

ACME sucks, i love shoprite.

the roads look like fucking highways.
it seems like a hick-town to me.

school still irks me;; i dont now how the kids are.
we still didnt get cable.

i've had at least 2 dreams with matt in it.

why? dont know. its not like it should matter or anything.
im over the whole matt thing. time to start fresh.

the moving situation thing isnt going to hit me until school starts.

i AM going to try and be outgoing.
that's my only shot at having any friends at this high school.
gross.

i miss my old church. yeah, i hated it.. but i was so familiar with it.

aka: i miss john.

thank GOD for autosave.

i just clicked on that tab that says 'Rich text' and it completely erased everything.

i dont know what else i should write.

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 05:51:46 GMT

something came to me just a while ago..
in two weeks exactly, i'll be in delaware.
i'll be away from my friends, away from all that i ever knew..
i'll be in a new environment and know nothing about it...
that sucks completely.

and another thing...
after this summer, i'll be a senior.. and in '08 summer, i'll be in europe with the people i entirely love.
xD
that's absolutely amazing.
i've been waiting for that moment since i was in sixth grade.

sixth. grade.

that's astonishing.
since then, i've been wanting and planning on who i was going to go to europe with..
and i have it..
i know what i want to do there
i know who's going to go
the day's getting closer.
we're growing up.

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 05:00:36 GMT

Opposite Sex.
1. Guitar or Drum Player: drum.. guitar.. uhhhh! either.
2. Skater or Surfer: uhhhhh, haha.
3. Brown or Blue Eyes: either.
4. Blonde or Brunette: either.

Food.
11. Hamburger or Hotdog: burger.
12. Pie or Cake: pie.
13. Apple or Banana: apple.
14. Coke or Pepsi: coke.
15. Chicken or Beef: chicken.
16. Oreos or Chips Ahoy: oreos.
17. Pancakes or Waffles: neither.
18. Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla.
19. Strawberry or Blueberry: strawberry.
20. Watermelon or Cantaloupe: watermelon.
21. Potato salad or Macaroni Salad: neither. .
22. Wheat or White: white.
23. Tic Tacs or Candy: candy.
24. Girls or Boys: how are girls & boys food, exactly? <--lmfao. exactly.
25. Sour Cream or BBQ: sour cream.
26. Baseball or football: umm.. again, food? <--also. but baseball. because of uhm, yeah. =]
27. Swim or Track: neither.
28. Tennis or Golf: both.
29. Skiing or Sledding: sledding!
30. Bicycling or Jogging: i hate jogging.
31. McDonalds or Burger King: uh
32. JC Penny's or Sears: neither.
33. Walmart or Target: target.
34. Trophy's or TGI Fridays: TGI Fridays.

Clothes.
36. Pants or Shorts : jeans.
36. Zip-Up or Pull-Over: both are nice. <--also.
39. Mittens or Gloves: glove.
40. Print or Solid: uh, depends.?

Music
51. Punk or Rock: both.
52. Pop or Alternative: alternative.
53. Rap or Techno: techno.
54. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: neither.
56. Korn or Staind: uh
57. Limp Bizkit or Linkin Park: ew.
58. Something Corporate or Jack's Mannequin: no.
59. Guitar or Drums: drumssss.
60. Piano or Violin: piano.

TV.
61. Dawson's Creek or 7th Heaven: neither.
62. Angel or Buffy the Vampire Slayer: HAHA, last seasons of both.
63. Law and Order or The Practice: law and order: svu. thanks.
64. One Tree Hill or The OC: gross.
65. Smallville or Charmed: 3859746 years ago, charmed was cool. but no.

Cinema.
66. Bruce Willis or Bruce Lee: uh, no.
67. Jennifer Love Hewitt or Neve Campbell: neither.
68. Aladdin or Lion King: LION KING.
69. Snow White or Sleeping Beauty: snow white.
70. Comedy or Drama: drama. -_-;;
71. Horror or Science Fiction: horror.

Computer/Video Games.
76. AOL or MSN: aol fucking sucks. MSN.
77. Dogpile or Google: google.
78. Mac or PC: mac is better, but i have pc. duh.
79. PS2 or N64: ps2.
80. Mario Brothers or Zelda: mario.

School.
81. Pen or Pencil: pen.
82. English or History: english, unfortunately.
83. Math or Science: math. but... oceanography's better. lmfao. i wonder why.
84. Home Economics or Woodshop: woodshop owned.
85. Backpack or Messenger Bag: messenger bag.

Animals.
86. Cat or Dog: dog.
87. Fish or Hamster: ew, neither.
88. Tiger or Lion: liger. :D <-- they're sterile. haha
89. Butterfly or Ladybug: neither.
90. Seals or Otters: otters.

All about me from A-Z.
A - AVAILABLE?: ew, yes.
B - BEST SPORT?: tennis, or golf, or baseball.... HAHAHA yeah, right.
C - CAT'S NAME? dont have a cat.
D - DOG'S NAME?: snoopy.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO?: houtaneh. and ray, funny kid.
F - FAVORITE COLOR?: green.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?: bear.
H - HOMESTATE?: 'jersey.
I - INSTRUMENT?: drums.
J - JUICE?: orange.<3
K - KIND OF MUSIC?: anything in my ipod.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE?: 12 hours.
M - MILK FLAVOR?: ..original...?
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS?: one.
O - ONE WISH?: yes.
P - PHOBIA/FEARS?: heights, rejection.
R - REASON TO SMILE: haha
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD?: bold as love - john mayer.
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP TODAY?: 4:05pm.
U - UNKNOWN FACT ABOUT ME?: i love you, matt. <-- SO DO I!. but uh, yeah. that's not unknown;;
V - VEGETABLE YOU DON'T LIKE?: avocado.
W- WORST HABIT?: procrastinating, talking too much.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD?: a couple.
Z - NO Z?: alrighty.

So Far in '06...

1. Have you had a serious relationship this year? no.
2. Have you had your birthday yet? yes.
3. Been to church? yes.
4. Cried yet? yeah.
5. Been on a diet? uh
6. Pulled an all nighter? uncountable.
7. Drink Starbucks? no.
8. Went shopping? yes.
9. Went Camping? uh
10. Been to the beach? yes.
11. Bought something for over $200? yes.
13. Been out of state? yes.
14. Gone Snowboarding? no way.
15. What are you thinking? matt, john, school, moving, etc.

Lasts..
Last Thing you bought? food.
Last Person to call you? houtaneh.
Last time you took a shower? yesterday.
When was the last time you felt stupid? yesterday.
Who did you last yell at? john?
What did you do today? sleep, watch tv, go to shoprite.
Natural hair color? black.
Hair style? curly.
Height: sigh, short.
Pets: dog.
Mood: not describable.
Where would you rather be? HAHAHA, uh, yeah. that's not so hard to guess.
Last thing you drank? orange juice.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
Have you ever been in love? no.
Do you believe in love? yes.
Why did your LAST relationship fail? there is no last relationship. <--also.
Have you ever broken someone's heart? don't ask me. <-- also.
Have you ever fallen for your best guy friend? nah.
Have you ever liked someone but never told them? duh.
Are you afraid of commitment? definitely not.
Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOS NAME STARTS WITH A "M"
A: mary.

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: michelle.

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: yes.

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: yes, well.. now i do.

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: no clue.

Q: WHAT WORD DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A: fag. <3

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE:
A: chedder and sour cream chip. lmfao

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE?
A: loser.

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: yes.

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: people hunting.

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: i hope... haha.

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
A: uh

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: sleeping.

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: yeah.

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: sure.

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
A: the brother.

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: uh

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: a whileeee ago.

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR ROOM?
A: the couch.

Q: EVER RAN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A : that's like.. my worst fear.

Q: LAST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN?
A: casino royale on le computer.

1) What side of the heart do you draw first?
right side.

2) Can you dive without plugging your nose?
i've never dived.

3) What color is your razor?
green.

4) What is your blood-type?
A positive.

5) Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
matt. haha. <-- also. x infinity. lmfaoooo hahahahha. impossible.

7) How do you feel about carrots?
dont like them.

8) How many chairs at the dining room table?
six.

9) Which is the best Spice Girl?
hahahhahahaha. i liked sporty spice. hahaha

10) Do you know what time it is?
11:53pm.

11) Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song?
no.

12) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
it would depend who i was stuck in there with.

13) What's your favorite kind of gum?
stride.

14) All's fair in love and war?
...

15) Do you have a crush on anyone?
entirely.

16) Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning?
yeah.

17) Do you like to sleep?
definitely.

18) Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings Time?
uhh, i did?

19) Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart?
uh

20) Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
no, im good. thanks.

21) What's something you've always wanted?
mercedes-benz slk280. haha

22) Do you have hairy legs?
no.

23) What does "Semper Fidelis" stand for?
always faithful.

24) Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
lake.

25)Do you wear a lot of black?
i did.

26) Describe your hair?
curly.

27) Do you have Entomophobia?
chyeah.

28) Are you an adult?
no.

29) Where is/are your best friend(s)?
right now: at home. haha

30) Do you have a tan?
uh, no.

31) Are you a television addict?
semi.

32) Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?
sometimes.

33) Are you a sugar freak?
ew no.

34) Do you like orange juice?
DUH.

35) What sign are you?
cancer.

36) Where do you wish you were right now?
HAHA, that's not hard to guess.

37) Who did you copy this from?
catharina.

38) How do you know them and how do you feel about them?
through sam who knew amber who was her friend at the time.
she's coo. havent talked to her in a million years though.

39) Have you kissed anyone in the past week?
nah.

40) What are your plans for the next weekend?
party.